I want to be enlightened! Is the first thing we say when we start looking at it seriously, I mean most laugh it of. When I thought 'well everything else which is supposed to make me happy failed miserably, now what?' and typed in the word on google out of curiosity, I had some idea of yoga and meditation but what do I know!

Enlightenment (spiritual), a final blessed state free from ignorance, desire and suffering.

Well who wouldn't want that right? Well after finding the so called guru's and teacher's all claiming they had it, a few did as was clearly felt which kept me looking for that state and a Self I never found, the search was on!

But what the hell there are not two selves, one self to find the other Self, wow how great so I am the Self that perceives all yet is all. Felt so right for so long, untill that Ruthless basterd Ciaran Healy had to come by with his flamethrower of truth and burn every concept down to the ground! Leaving nothing...

Of course not knocklehead ! Everything was still there except the assumption of an existent self, EVERYTHING IS STILL THERE EXCEPT THE ASSUMPTION THAT THERE IS AN EXISTENT SELF, EVERYTHING IS STILL THERE EXCEPT THE ASSUMPTION THAT THERE IS SUCH A THING AS AN EXISTING SELF!!!

Unbelievable how many excuses there can be made up, not to really look into this! And why this cannot possibly be true. "There must be something there which is aware, so that must be me". Or "If there is no I who can do the looking?". Well as long as your worldview does not need to be questioned and one can keep searching for that final blessed state free from ignorance, desire and suffering no problem!

Ever wondered if there really is such a thing as enlightenment you are so desperately searching and craving for?

How do you know? Someone told you, you read it and it was believed! Including this oh so difficult path towards it, only the very few succeed in bringing to an end (at least that is what they say, very convenient isn't it?).

But what made them so special and different from you? While they say that they see no difference between them and you they contradict themselves by saying something needs to be done, changed or even shift. Find the Self and look into it untill it happens by the grace of Mr or Ms guru.

WELL WAKE UP FROM FAIRYTALE LAND IT DOES NOT WORK LIKE THAT!

So honestly answer these questions! There is existence, no denying that, there is only one existence, no denying that, tell me how you are not included in existence?

If there is at least some sanity left in you, you did not have an answer and had to admit you are not seperate from existence! Why are you on the other hand still clinging to a seperate self which needs to be perfected or enlightened? How can this self exist seperately from existence?

Please honestly look into these questions! Don't make up excuses like he is not acting enlightened enough or it cannot be this simple DO IT NOW!


This is not about remembering concepts and analyzing them!

It is also not about doing something to end or MAKE anything disappear either!

Neither is it about perfect understanding and then a shift into eternal bliss! Or about only good feelings!

What is it about?




Leave all expectations behind and actually have the guts to check, test or see what happens in actual experience RIGHT NOW in this very instance, what is there happening? There is looking at the screen and reading of words, thoughts about this blog you are reading, body functioning [senses included] and awareness of all that, which is all existing not seperate from existence. Is there really a you or anything at all DOING all of this or is it just happening? DO NOT ANSWER ME ANSWER YOURSELF AFTER YOU REALLY CHECKED!